A Year Long Challenge – We asked seven people who manage a mental health issue to take a photo each week, about something they are grateful for. Being In Gratitude starts to change how we perceive things – read our Original Blog here. On Saturday we now have two contributors, one from the north and the other from the south of England.
I AM SATURDAY SOUTH
I am 18 years old and I feel about 40. I have had a very difficult time with my mum’s ongoing struggle with mental illness and severe alcoholism. Living at home with her hasn’t been safe for me for many years. Recently I came back to find her unconscious and called an ambulance. I was in A&E as I watched her die. Staff restarted her heart and she went into a coma for a couple of days. She then walked out and continued her drinking and has some brain damage. I am on antidepressants, I work with a counsellor and have joined a Support Group for Children of Alcoholics. I am slowly trying to put my life back together as I realise its time for me to get back my inner fire and start living my life. I think finding something I am grateful for each week will be really helpful for me this year.
I AM SATURDAY NORTH
I am a middle aged single mum of two teenage girls. I studying an MA in Psychodynamic Art Psychotherapy. As I learnt about developmental aspects of mental health, I became triggered and I failed most assignments in the first year. I decided to defer the second year to allow myself the time to deal with what was happening to me and got close to ending my life. I went to the GP and I was referred to a short course of CBT which helped a bit. I began Art Psychotherapy, and discovered I was dealing with Childhood onset Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (C-PTSD) with additional trauma from adulthood. I worked hard on my self development – psychologically, emotionally, spiritually and academically as I continued my MA. After a year of therapy I had a profound experience, it felt like coming out of a dark Forest into a clearing bathed in sunshine. I felt new. There was a new spin on everything around me. I had to learn to be this new more peaceful person. I am still learning how to do this. I now feel more confident in my own ability to achieve in life and I now feel trust in the universes’ capacity to provide me with everything I need. I so feel blessed to be in my life and for that, I am grateful. Happy to continue to stay In Gratitude this whole year and share my photos.